Lucky Shot Essay

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Lucky Shot

LUCKY SHOT.

By Rebecca R

I sit in my room with a gun on my left and pills on my right. I sit and think - is it
worth living another day? It's a difficult question, which I think about every night. I
look to my left, then to my right. I should have gone to sleep I tell myself, and hope
tomorrow will be different. It's time just to give up! I try to think about something
positive in my life but there's nothing to think of. Maybe the years I don't remember were
good, but I doubt that. I turn to my left again and stair at the gun. The gun isn't loaded
yet but I have one bullet sitting on the table waiting for this special occasion. Maybe it
would be easier to take the pills. It's much quieter and clearer that way. But maybe I
should leave ‘HELL' with a bang? But then again it's not my style. My whole life I was
quiet; I think that the suffering should end - yes! I grab the bottle and open the lid.
For some reason I pour the pills on the bed and begin to count them. Twenty-one. That
should do it. I grab one pill and carry it towards my mouth, but I am unable to put it in.
I place the pill back on the bed. I look up at the ceiling thinking. My neck begins to
hurt, but it doesn't bother me - I'll be dead soon. I start to wonder if my life would
have been any different if God was a part of it. My neck begins to hurt more so I bring my
head down and stare at the wall. As I'm staring at the wall, I try to build up confidence
to end it all. I never had any confidence. My misery will soon end. Why can't I just do
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