hey whtas up? your probably playing your game right now! i bet your doing
good ! practice sucked, it was so hot!! i dunno!!! but anyways Sunday on icq
i asked brad if you said anything about me, and he just said ďno, she was like
all over the guys thoughĒ itís ok if you were i mean u donít have to not be all
over guys anymore, but i mean i just dontí like when people like say that they
like me and then do that, iím not saying you did it iím just saying..... like itís
like u lead me on sometimes! but i probably do it too.... itís ok donít worry, it
just makes me feel bad.... i still like u as much as i used to.... but i guess you
donít like me as much but thats ok too.... ok itís like 8 30 now.... i just got
off the phone with krupa! he has changed so much.... like hes not rude and
loud anymore heís like quiet and like shy, like he doesnít know me anymore!!
itís sad!!! i miss the kid! ok now itís 9 30, wheres the time going!!! i donít
want to go to sleep cause then next thing i know iím getting up for school!!!
well school isnít so bad anymore but itís still not cool.... hey iím writing! this
actually is taking me a long time!! cause iím slow and canít think of stuff!!
oh man u want to know a good song... donít tell anyone i said this
PLEASE!!!! all 4 one - so in love.... ok donít tell anyone tonja!!! i always
think of you when i listen to it, because thats how i always imagined us. like
not caring about anything for a little while and just thinking about eachother
just being together and everything being perfect, itís just like the song but
that would be embarrassing. but anyways, i mean i still think of you as like
my girl. i mean i wonít go out with other people and stuff for a while at
least.... like i like u so much but i donít know if i want to go out because of
your mom, that really bothers me!!!! i wish things were different with her... it
would be perfect... iím serious i bet it would be perfect. but thats not the case
with her u know! itís ok i understand where she is coming from, well i dunno
itís been a while u know.... but still. ok iím going to tell you something all
gay and weird but like i know that nothing has changed for me because
before i go to sleep everynight, instead of dreaming about shaina bradigan or
some other girls i always think of you. i mean i guess it sorta makes me want
to go to school just because i get a feeling when iím with you that i like never
get. itís like that nervous little kid feeling where you are scared to talk to the
girl because you donít know if youíll do something stupid or something
wrong and make them not like you... do you knwo what i mean, like itís that
feeling i used to get when i was like 11 and asking some girl out... itís just
wierd!!! i havneít got that for a long time!!! like i never used to get it with
you but itís weird! ok thats enough gay *censored* for me to say.... i dunno listining
to that so in love song made me miss you and thats how i think when i miss
you!!! but now iím listining to big tymers so itís all better,,, iím sorry about
my gayness earlier in the note!!! ok i dunno whats wrong with me////
anyways i wonder how you did in your game?? i hope you did good! i canít
wait till baseball!!! oh god i love that sport so much, and softball will be
really fun for you too i promise you it will be!!! i canít wait till i can drive!!!
oh god!!! i want a car bad, i want a talon or a eclipse!! i bet iíll get a nice first
car and yes iíll drive you home from school but i bet your mom would get
mad. but itís quicker than riding the bus you know! maybe she wonít be mad
itís just a ride home!! but i donít even want to think about that cause iím not
even 16